I see a psychiatrist and am trying to find the right meds for my bipolar, but this team makes things 10 times worse and makes me absolutely miserable. Madden is actually an escape fantasy from the real thing, which is unfortunate, considering the NFL should be an escape from the real world, but makes me more miserable than anything that happens in my everyday life.
I hate Ballard with every fiber of my being for wasting 8 years of my life as the GM with no real chance to ever contend (yes, I hate Grigson for the same thing, but we had a chance with Luck at least). I hate Gus Bradley for being an awful D-Coordinator that lives in the past and sets us back every week and never adjusts. I don't trust Shane Steichen for what he said about Matt Gay not being injured, and it's so obvious he will always abandon the run when we fall behind. I'm starting to hate Irsay for not firing Chris Ballard. He's quickly becoming the problem for allowing all this to happen. This team deserves better, and it's in a mediocre rut because we have a GM and owner with no spine (for different reasons).
After one game, it's not even fun to watch. Like clockwork, we lose the first game of the season again to a divisional opponent. We have a team with obvious holes, and less obvious holes that were exposed Sunday. I don't enjoy it anymore. How can you? I would rather burn the money that it would cost to go to a Colts game than subject myself to watching this.
I'm a huge fan of the Indianapolis Colts. I hate the Chris Ballard led Indianapolis Colts. He has ruined the team I have loved since I was 10 years old. When I would rather play as the Colts on Madden than watch the Colts play for real, something is horribly wrong.