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  1. Luck really upset me tonight. So many missed throws, and that moronic throw to avoid the sack is something he HAS TO HAS TO stop doing if we are going to get to the next level as a team. It's reckless and at that point it very much was a game. He has to play smarter. I know the numbers don't necessarily support this, and I'll sound like a crazy man, but I think Luck looked better his first two seasons, then he has to this point in his 3rd season. Sure, he made plenty of mistakes back then, but there was something magical about him. He's become so pocket oriented, and while that's great for his long-term health it has taken away a dimension of his game, which was invaluable.

  2. the video was for the girlfriend so she could leave him until he grew up and started acting like a man.

    Him exercising was because his only hobbies are sitting down and watching tv. That isn't healthy and kind of gross

     

    Actually, I like going to the theater more than anything. I'm not obese in the slightest. My job is exercise enough.

     

    Also, I don't think a video of me acting out during games would do a bit of good. I'm aware of the problem, and I understand how embarrassing it is from an outsiders perspective.  

  3. I went to see a therapist when I was having marital problems, but he only allowed 30 minute sessions. I didn't feel that was an adequate amount of time to address all of my issues, so I stopped going. If I could find a better one that would be willing to allocate more time to address my various issues that would be something I'd definitely pursue.

  4. I've been lucky in the fact that my temper hasn't branched out to other things. I've never hit anyone before or threatened a loved one with violence. It's all directed at sports, so I guess I'm grateful for that.

  5. Again, wrong. 1 game, 2 bad decisions. That's literally the only memory I have of him exercising poor judgement in 2014. 

     

    Aside from 2 returns in the Balt game, he's been very smart and dependable. He gets the ball past the 20 and our offense gets it's turn without undue hardship by way of an id10t returner getting himself pounded inside the 10 yard line. 

     

    He made a mistake in the Bengals game, but the exact mistake escapes my memory at the moment. Of course after the Baltimore game I find myself scrutinizing him more than ever.

  6. I think I read through all of these.  I have not seen your age or family info.  I would not give any advice without having that understanding myself.

     

    I used to be a total maniac watching games.  Throwing things...yelling...screaming....drinking like a Raider fan...I was worse than anyone you know.

     

    I got remarried, became a step dad to 6 awesome kids, and now there is no yelling unless we have a great TY play...a nice run...or great Special teams play.

     

    KIDS and a caring wife made a huge difference for me as well as mellowing with age :)

     

    Good luck.  I will add more if I hear your home situation a little more clearly. :)

     

    I'm 27 divorced with no kids, but I have a loving girlfriend. I have other interests besides sports such as films and TV. I thought by now, after all life has thrown at me, I'd finally be able to put sports in perspective, but it still is paramount to my overall happiness.

  7. We all have our own idiosyncrasies or peculiar ritualistic patterns of behavior I guess. My question is this: After you watch a game in which the Colts lose Buckingcolt, does your frustration linger or dissipate relatively quickly? Say within 45 minutes afterward for instance. I often joke that when the Colts lose it ruins my whole week, but that's not really true unless when lose a close game on a lack of concentration fumble or something like that. But, I'm not lying about my strong animosity toward the Dallas Cowboys though, but that's more of a family tradition than anything else really. 

     

    I'm no medical expert or psychological specialist by trade. I admire your passion for the Indianapolis Colts sir, but I never want to see a person's health suffer as a consequence of their team loyalty & devotion either. I also would not like to see your personal relationships suffer as a result of your anguish over franchise losses as well. "I did attend the Baltimore game, and now I think my girlfriend never wants to attend a sporting event with me again." There is genuine pain in that line BuckingColt & this dilemma is sadly no laughing matter. Is there a close confidant you can lean on & talk to about this issue? Have you discussed the matter with your girlfriend? What are her thoughts on the situation? I'm not trying to get too personal here or make you feel uneasy or uncomfortable...As a matter of fact, I admire the bravery it took to disclose your problem so candidly, openly, & truthfully. 

     

    I know a lot of people, not necessarily you perse, who lead mundane lives with a boring job & not enough money to satisfy themselves financially who live vicariously through the success of their favorite team as if to mask other issues buried deep within their psyche. I do not think less of you as a person for being so honest with other Colts fans about your anxiety dilemma. Do you follow any other sports beyond INDY football & if so do you experience a similar anxiety attack? I'm just curious. If you record Colts games & watch them later, can you catch yourself getting upset & implement relaxation strategies to slow down your breathing & calm down? When you get excited say over a touchdown do you still throw items at the TV screen or only when INDY is having troubling scoring or turning the ball over? 

     

    It probably just helps to talk about it in a friendly atmosphere of enthusiastic, diehard INDY fans Buckingcolt. Sometimes, it just feels good to release the pressure valve & let the tension out. That's what playing percussion, listening to music, & watching movies is to me my form of escape & refuge for awhile from the rigors of the world. NCF, The Peytonator, & all my friends on here game some really sound advice. Just remember: Your not a freak or monster & I sincerely hope that you & your girlfriend can find a solution to keep this issue at bay by just being patient, understanding, & knowing how to avoid triggers that make your Colts viewing experience much more enjoyable in the longrun. Goodluck BuckingColt. Easier said than done I know. 

     

    My frustration definitely lingers. I pretty much swear off ESPN or any media outlet for the entire week. Hearing about a loss or watching our team struggle is triggering. The Eagles game inspired me to stop watching altogether, because I knew it was time to take control. Actually, the 2006 AFC Championship should have been a wake-up call since I ended up shattering the glass on our front door. I remember doing it after Peyton's pick-6. I got up to slam our front door and I did it so hard that the glass shattered and my hands went through it. I was cut up and bleeding for the remainder of the game, so I couldn't really enjoy the comeback as thoroughly as everyone else. The bloodletting did calm me down, however...

     

    My best friend knows how I get, but he has no interests in sports, so he can't really relate. He loves the World Cup and that's really it. If I try to watch football with him he'll troll me by complaining about how football is so stop and go. He thinks I should just give up watching games altogether, but it's easy as a non-fan for him to have that position. My girlfriend is aware of my issues, and she gets frustrated by it at times. For example, I was watching the replay of the Bengals game knowing we won and I was still getting * off, and she yelled at me for acting out, since the result wasn't in doubt. I agree with her that I was acting ridiculous. I think she loves me regardless of my idk what to call it 'sickness', maybe? She just wants me to act civilized in public...which I'm demonstrably incapable of. 

     

    I'm a major IU fan, and historically I've been worse during IU basketball games. When I was younger I use to punch holes in the walls of my room, one time I threw my computer chair down the stairs, and during a game at Minnesota where we blew a 20 point half-time lead I kicked my vcr so hard that I broke it. I do have a mundane job, but it pays well. We are both doing well financially, though I do have anxiety issues over that as well, because it's just in my nature to worry. It's like I know giving up sports would be the ultimate way to resolve this particular issue and probably give myself some peace of mind, but it's so ingrained in the fabric of who I am, that I feel I'd be amputating a part of my soul to do so.

  8. This game has my stomach in knots. I just don't see us winning this one. I hate playing at Pittsburgh. Only playing at New England is worse in my mind. We have to be sharp on offense out of the gate. The defense doesn't concern me if they can contain their run game. We are more than capable of beating them, but my glass half-empty self won't allow me to envision it.

  9. I'll share some thoughts....   but only to offer some perspective....   I don't pretend that I have some magical solution....

     

    As a former Sports Producer -- often for the 11p newscast -- I quickly figured out that having favorite teams,  whether it was the Dodgers, or Lakers, or Rams, or any other team was not good for my job.    Getting sidetracked by who was winning or losing was a distraction I couldn't afford.

     

    All I cared about was if the game was good and ended on time.   That gave me time to get hi-lites edited and scripts written so you could enjoy them at home.

     

    But,  since I no longer do that, I enjoy my favorite teams.   And I care whether they win or lose. 

     

    But, if you can't enjoy the 3 hour game experience, then........... what's the point?!?  

     

    I'm totally serious.       What's?      The?       Point?!?!?

     

    I have a very close friend who is more into Stanford than I am.    He went to Stanford.   He met his ex-wife at Stanford.   Both his parents went to Stanford.     He and his family write very, very big checks to the school every year.     He's hugely invested.

     

    And when Stanford plays,  he's almost physically ill.     I'm seriously worried that he's going to suffer an ulcer or high blood pressure,  or a heart attack,  or a stroke.      And for what?    

     

    He -- like you -- knows he's got a big problem.    He's considering going to therapy.    But, I suspect that won't happen for a while.

     

    But, you need to ask yourself......   if you really can't enjoy the experience of being a fans -- even a diehard fan -- then something is wrong and you need to change things.

     

    I'm hoping you can someday get to a place where you can enjoy a game and not torture yourself.    Hey, whether they win or lose,  take your lady out for a nice meal and a drink and enjoy the night.      Finish off the night with a little romance and when you wake up the next day,  avoid the newspaper if they lose and enjoy the paper if the Colts win.

     

    If being a fan isn't fun,  then it's not worth it.    I'm not kidding.    It's OK to live and die (more figure of speech than anything else)...   but it's no OK to effect the rest of your life so you can't enjoy it and your family and friends can't enjoy you......

     

    Sorry,  this got a little preachy....   didn't mean for that to happen......

     

    Bottom line:     you only get one pass at life....   you gotta make the most of it and enjoy yourself.    And if you can't enjoy being a Colts fan,  then fix things so you can!

     

    Good luck!       :thmup:

     

    Wow. That was well worth the read. Thank you so much!

     

    I'm trying to turn Sunday's into date nights.....or lunches. Just do things to get away from the game, and enjoy the wonderful relationship I have with my gf. However, being a Colts and IU fan is such a part of who I am that I don't think I could ever turn my back on them, no matter how much it impairs my mental health. I just want to arrive at a point where I can watch them play without throwing a tantrum, and being a general nuisance to everyone else in the room. Being a fan to me is worth the reward no matter how physically draining and psychologically damaging it is.

  10. Got to your doctor. He'll hook you up. Just don't tell him you need it for football viewing. Alcohol induces rage. Don't do that.

     

    Maybe some xanax or valium?

     

    I don't mean to just sit here and recommend drugs, but you appear to not be able to control yourself. 

     

    BTW: You certainly aren't alone. I've known many many otherwise normal people that turn all devil when they watch sports. 

     

    I've gone to the doctor for a lot for other issues, but I'm nervous about bringing this particular one up. That's sad, I know.

     

    You're right, though. I really don't see a way around some kind of medical regimen.

  11. Huh, try to keep perspective. When the games over, keep your mind on what's actually important. 

     

    When the games over I'm either elated or depressed. I'm worried about my behavior before and during. I've been able to mitigate my issues by boycotting live broadcasts, but I feel like I'm losing something by not being a part of the live experience. I would kill to be able to nonchalantly watch games. I envy those people.

  12. I didn't think it hit him in the arm. Luck put it right in his chest. It was a counter play, which is a tricky handoff, and Trent was setting up his cut and getting ready to change direction, and in so doing, he never got his hands and arms on the ball. The ball was placed a little high, but not too high.

     

    That's how I felt. Trent should have handled it, imo.

  13. I get the same way too sometimes. Being a fan can be stressful, especially when you really put you're heart into it and you're emotionally attached to the game. Only advice I have is maybe you should hit a bed or couch or something instead of your leg and/or breakable objects.

     

    I just want to watch a game like a normal sane person. I've tried drinking to relax myself, but my anxiety usually cancels it out.

  14. So the question is this..................

     

    Do you really -- I mean REALLY -- want tips or advice.....

     

    OR......

     

    Are you really hoping to hear from dozens of other Colts fans here who feel and act the exact same way you do?!?

     

    I'm totally serious....

     

    Honestly, probably both.

     

    I've been like this since as long as I can remember. My mom offered to pay me one time so I wouldn't watch IU play at the place she works. I think my problem is I live vicariously through sports teams and if they fail, then I feel like I've failed somehow.

  15. I can't watch Colt's games without losing my temper(like I'll hit my leg or inanimate objects around me) and apart from that my anxiety eats me up alive. I can't eat during games and I'm just a complete nervous wreck before and during. It's gotten so bad that for the last 5 weeks I haven't watched a single game on TV - I just record them for later, but only after I see the "what's worse than being blank and blank?" thread to confirm that we won - HOWEVER I did attend the Baltimore game, and now I think my girlfriend never wants to attend a sporting event with me again.

     

    Does anyone have any tips or advice for handling my neurosis?

  16. Strength of schedule is determined by last year's records, which based off of that, the Colts did indeed have the easiest. But many of our opponents have significantly improved since last year. So now, I'd say it's amongst one of the toughest.

     

    I understand that, but applying logic to our schedule I never thought it was easy.

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