I don't really know you but after reading that my heart hurts for you. I know from experience that losing a mom is very difficult to move on from. Sounds like your fiance' was a wonderful blessing and healing to you in the time that was allowed for her to touch your life. Honor her love for you my Colts fan brother and try and be strong as I am sure she would not want you to give up. Sending prayers your way for your healing, strength and encouragement. God bless you.